at the brink of my holiday

well today is actually my last friday i'll spend freely (read : no class). yupz, i've come to my end of holiday soon and its kinda freaks me out u kno, i mean i didnt even gt a chance to do anything; to do my assignment, rearranging my room, getting ready for my battle in the semester n stuffs. well the truth is its me who's making it that way because i juz spent my holiday lazying around the house without actually doing something. well, its not like i'm lazying around everyday, but i just didnt spare an appropriate time to especially do my assignment when i have all the time in the world. gosh i dun wanna be like this, n i've been smoking alot, and that's not good for health, i thought that i've changed, but i kinda feel i'm going back again to my old little deep shit hole where i used to stuck! the difference is only now i have a new addiction and thank god i can still control myself.
and juz fyi, i was smoking this kretek ciggy without filter which is kinda strong and it took me 7 of my winner to get used to it again. yapz, i've been smoking 7 of them since last nite! i kinda not felt guilty now that im earning. i just have to get a hold more on my life. what i sacrifice, i'll get compensation for that. i don't wanna sacrifice my health for smoking just to get the same old appetite i used to have. and i just kinda loose it last nite and alil bit this morning. i'll make sure it will never happen again! and if it does, then i'll quit smoking as it's considered ditching me rite?!
ok i just feel like writting so, yes,
and i hate my housemate. she's now kinda make it official and permanent that she take MY (with kumsi)'s toilet into a common toilet which we happily ready to share with her where we're not! I'M NOT HAPPILY READY TO SHARE MY TOILET WITH MY OTHER HOUSEMATES AND ESPECIALLY NOT HER!!!
it's not that i feel too much exclusiveness or sth, it's just HER HAIR which falls s0o much n she never even bother to clean it. i dont want to back to my old forced habit to clean other people's mess, i want to clean my own mess and only my own! i dont want to use a same toilet with a person who only wants to take a free ride!
and her mom is coming today. i dont kno how will we manage to chuck her out of my toilet, but we'll definitely do that!
i kno i sound so bitcho, but that's just a new deal i have to treat myself to.

cya later folks

-vANIa-
feels unregretful sorry for her housemate,,~